What does it mean to
truly have peace? I think most of us grow up with the thought that having peace
or being peaceful is being calm and not being stressed out. However, peace is a
Person. Peace is Jesus. And what He has so gently been teaching me recently is
that the only way to have true, lasting peace is to look to HIM, to set my face
upon Him and refuse to look away.
Yesterday was quite
the busy and potentially stressful day for me. I had an Old Testament exam that
I forgot to study for, I had a study group scheduled with some girls from my
history class, I had my history class, I had a few hours in the afternoon to get
done the mountain of homework that I have to do this weekend, and then I had my
Environment class for 2.5 hours last night. Toward the middle of my day, I found
myself worrying and being anxious over whether or not I would be able to get
all my homework done. You see, I had a plan. I would spend all of Saturday and
some of Sunday if I needed to, to get all of it done so I wouldn’t have to
worry about it when I fly out to Colorado next weekend. However, my mom
surprised me by texting me and telling me that she was driving down this
weekend to visit. So, my nicely, scheduled plan went out the window. And there
it was. The bait to stress, worry, be anxious, and take my eyes off of Jesus.
And for a while, I gave in. I wondered and fretted about whether I would have time
to get everything done that needed to get done. But, right in the midst of
this, I got a beautiful text from my friend, Melanie. It is a quote from Oswald
Chambers:
There are times when our peace is based upon
ignorance, but when we awaken to the facts of life, inner peace is impossible
unless it is received from Jesus. When our Lord speaks peace, He makes peace…it
is a peace which comes from looking into His face and realizing His
undisturbedness. Are you painfully disturbed just now, distracted by the waves
and billows of God’s providential permission, and having, as it were, turned
over the boulders of your belief, are you still finding no well of peace or joy
or comfort; is it all barren? Then look up and receive the undisturbedness of
the Lord Jesus. Reflected peace is the proof that you are right with God because
you are at liberty to turn your mind to Him. If you are not right with God, you
can never turn your mind anywhere but on yourself. But if you try to worry it
out, you obliterate Him and deserve all you get. We get disturbed because we
have not been considering Him. When one confers with Jesus Christ the
perplexity goes, because He has no perplexity, and our only concern is to abide
in Him. Lay it all out before Him, and in the face of difficulty, bereavement
and sorrow, hear Him say, “Let not your heart be troubled.”’
I read this quote,
was convicted, and had a startling realization. I did not have peace at that
moment because I was focused on myself. You
see, if I had been focused on Jesus, I would have been focused upon Peace, for
He is Peace. I would not have been disturbed, because He cannot be undisturbed.
Instead, I had turned my focus and my gaze to focus on my needs, my pressing
concerns, my overload of homework, my concerns. All the while, Jesus had
promised to take care of my needs, if I had simply given them to Him.
Philippians 4: 6-7
says, "Be careful for nothing (in other words: take no thought or care for
yourself, but rather spend yourself on Jesus); but in everything by prayer and
supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the
peace of God, which passes all understanding, shall keep ( guard, set a
garrison about) your hearts and minds through Jesus Christ.”
What if, instead of
fretting and getting anxious, I had turned to my Source of Peace? What if, I
had poured out my worries and concerns to my Bridegroom, trusting Him to take
care of all of them for me? I would have received (and did, after I repented
and gave them to Him) the peace that passes all understanding. In verse 11,
Paul talks about how he has learned to be content in whatever circumstance he
is in. Our contentment does not depend on outward circumstances but rather upon
the Source of Peace Himself.
So, friend, look to Jesus today and receive peace
that passes all understanding. And once you do, He will infuse strength into
your soul to do all that He has called you to (verse 13).